I'm really struggling to stay focused, motivated and disciplined. After a slow summer at the office things are finally picking up - this is a good thing, I was starting to get worried.
However, it begs the question - am I so one dimensional that I can only focus on one thing at a time? As I concentrate on staying focused and motivated at work, my workout motivation and discipline as far as my diet goes is waning.
I missed Wednesday's workout and did not blink an eye. I did get in the pool yesterday and did the workout, plus the bike workout. Plan to do two workouts today to get all the workouts in, but the me of two months ago would not have missed the workout - I would have found some way to get it in.
The diet thing - it's o.k. to be off for a little while, but I'm talking about a month now - yeah, I have some good days, but they seem to be outnumbered by the bad days lately.
Some would say that this all relates to accomplishing my major goal of the year and staying focused for so long to get there. I reject that - it is just plain 'ol weakness and I need to find the mental prowess to get back to where I need to be.
My workouts, when done, are going well. Some are even PRs. I still have a major goal around the corner - The Hartford Marathon. I would like to PR my marathon - actually don't even think that is a lofty goal considering how the past three have gone.
Do I sound like I'm whining? I feel like I am.
Yesterday's workouts went fine. Swim 1200 for time - 21:45. Not the greatest time and not surprised as I did not feel loose or powerful in the pool.
Second workout immediately following - Tabata bike 1 min on, 30 sec off, 20 times. What a leg burner this was. I did it on a spinning bike so I don't know the distance and that is irrelevant as far as I'm concerned - this was a hard, hard workout.
I was initially planning on doing three workouts to get back on schedule, but I was drained after the bike and thought it best to postpone one until today.
I'm hoping that writing my weaknesses down for all to see will be all the motivation that I need to get back on track.